Days Like This

For the last few months I have had a very hard time sleeping with my nightmares getting worse and my anxiety levels being heightened. During class today, I wrote this poem, as I was feeling inspired and absolutely exhausted.

I hate days like this.

I hate days like today.

The days I know, I should have gone back to sleep

The days I know, I should have stayed at home

Not because it would be easier

But merely because it was safer

My mind,

I can feel it shutting off

I can feel myself losing focus

I beg my mind

“Hold on for just another hour,

We’ll be home soon”

My mind ignores my pleas

Slowly losing power

As if I am an uncharged phone

Or laptop

Not often used

Easily forgotten that it needs to recharge too

I hate days like this,

Feeling more exhausted than usual

I hate days like this

Knowing I am delusional

No way of dipping myself

In the holy grail of sleep

Because when I try

I realize I’m in too deep

I hate days like this

When I feel I’ve lost my mind

But sleep looks at me,

Laughs and replies “Declined”

this beautiful drawing is by Gisela Hardian. I do not own this. The copyright is hers.